… siMpLe tHouGht of -mEd’z- …

So like this legend that rises and then falls I’ll never be his only one

He wants to be, he wants to be, with everything under the sun
He wants to be, he wants to be, with everything under the sun

And like a legend that rises and then falls I cannot be his only one

He makes me feel, he makes me feel, like you used to,
like you used to
He makes me feel, he makes me feel, like you used to,
like you used to

And like a fickle flower when it first sees the light
I cannot show just how I fight
And like a fickle flower when it first sees the light
I cannot show just how I fight

So like this legend that rises and then falls I’ll never be his only one

rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:39:55 PM): hey whats new in ur stormy love life
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:42:00 PM): mmm…new…welll….i try to take ma self as a loser who always GIVE UP in every way of love life…
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:42:37 PM): and at first it quite knocking me out…but slowly i can walk with it…
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:42:39 PM): haha
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:43:03 PM): u lost some1?
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:43:10 PM): it mean…screw with my love life!!!
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:43:20 PM): not only one….all of them!
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:43:42 PM): i lost every one i love b4 i knew it…worst, b4 i have it!!
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:43:54 PM):
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:43:59 PM): lol
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:44:16 PM): and i dont know why i told u how stupid and coward i am…
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:44:27 PM):
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:44:31 PM): well not coward
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:44:39 PM): well, at least…that’s me dude…
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:44:43 PM): if u were a coward u would not try
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:44:52 PM): we all get rejected
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:44:55 PM): all of us
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:44:58 PM): me too
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:45:23 PM): well, in a globally… i do never try hard. never brave to make it harder
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:45:42 PM): and i dont care…
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:45:56 PM): hmm wells ur good right
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:47:00 PM): i mean-who’s to say how u have to do it….noone
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:47:21 PM): what’s keep me steady…the reality that when i stare to a closing door, other door r open to me…but i ignore that. and i dont care bout that…
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:47:57 PM): did u get what i mean..
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:48:00 PM): ….maybe u dont want whats behind the second door
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:48:15 PM): YAPZ….exacly
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:48:20 PM): ur only interested in "closed" one
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:48:26 PM): lol
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:48:30 PM): we’re all the same
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:48:45 PM): but the fact there’s some one behind quite keep me comfy … haha
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:48:48 PM): we dont wanna settle for that
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:49:10 PM): well yea
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:49:27 PM): but ur heart wants love; not comfort
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:49:54 PM): damn! u’re right!
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:50:06 PM): yea
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:50:06 PM):
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:50:19 PM): u just kick me in the head!
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:50:28 PM): lol
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:51:45 PM): now it sound pity!
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:52:39 PM): hehe
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:53:39 PM): well i dunno
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:53:50 PM): who’s the other-door-person
medio venda (3/29/2007 4:55:09 PM): haha…dont talkin bout something we pass
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 4:55:28 PM): k
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:00:28 PM): it’s sooooo common
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:00:41 PM): happens to, i guess, literally evryone
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:00:54 PM): ok…for those who got it often…it’s a common!
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:01:00 PM): not me!
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:01:28 PM): cos instinctively….evryone wants a little ‘higher’ or ‘better’ than where they are themselves….
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:01:31 PM): (in try to deniying)
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:01:54 PM): and the other person is the same—they want a lil higher also….
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:02:25 PM): im not try to find a better one,,,the different between the first person that i fall with and the second one is only the matter of time
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:02:26 PM): isnt it….
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:02:42 PM): rite….
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:03:37 PM): i know the first one first, than i fall on then i just realize the 2nd other r fall on me
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:04:06 PM): right…
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:04:30 PM): so the 2nd one is still tryin?
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:05:38 PM): well…i dont know exactly…but…some time i ignore it
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:05:52 PM): hehehe
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:06:01 PM): till gives up….
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:06:09 PM): that’s why i got ignored from the first …
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:06:20 PM): kind of karma
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:06:28 PM):
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:07:20 PM): why?
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:07:49 PM): u have evry right to reject someone’s advances
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:07:57 PM): coz i was ignorin someone
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:08:30 PM): i dunno
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:09:13 PM): ignoring someone is….really the right thing to do…if ur not interested
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:09:29 PM): will that bring bad luck?
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:09:58 PM): well, i guess it wont
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:10:04 PM): otherwise you’d b obligated to accept evryone
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:10:36 PM): not accept everyone…but respect the feelin that they already try to express
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:10:44 PM): if thats true—then u might as well get paid 4 it
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:10:52 PM): ehm ow ic
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:10:59 PM): yea thats true
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:11:29 PM): but shamly i preffer to pay my flat bills than that, if i should
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:11:47 PM): there’s nice and nasty waysto reject
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:12:32 PM): well, we talkin bout rejection while i got the rejection its self
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:14:15 PM): ehm
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:14:24 PM): how u mean-u got the rejection itself
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:14:56 PM): well it just my thought…even i havent know it…
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:15:10 PM): i just want to "feel" it rupert…
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:15:52 PM): feel that im rejected…so that i dont need to expecting more and more
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:15:54 PM): yea
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:15:57 PM): of course
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:16:16 PM): it’ll keep me comfy
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:17:41 PM): hm u mean….
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:17:57 PM): u want to remove illiusions frm ur mind
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:18:05 PM): so u dont reach too high?
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:18:44 PM): exactly
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:18:56 PM): hmmm
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:19:09 PM): mmm…i think u’re quite cleaver in "feeling" stuff huh…
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:19:12 PM): thats a very humble ambition
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:19:43 PM): sorta like keepin urself from gettin hurt in the future
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:20:42 PM): well, we can avoid to get hurt when we deal with our feelin’
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:20:55 PM): it just like gambling
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:21:19 PM): ya true
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:21:49 PM): what i did it just to keep me away fr expecting to much on somethin’ that i know(even not sure)i couldn get it
medio venda (3/29/2007 5:22:02 PM): couldnt
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:22:44 PM): ya i know what u mean
rupert_england vandermeer (3/29/2007 5:33:07 PM): then ur beatin urself over the head sayin….’if only i was courageous’

when i’m tryin’ to get close … you walk

when i was ignoring you … you show tenderness

when i get confuse … you seem’s understand

when i mad at you because don’t understand what i need … i never knew whether you realize it or you don’t care

when i’m cool … you’re cool

when i want you most … you stand

when i stare at you (i’m not brave enough to do that often) … you stare back at me 

when i wonder ’bout you … do you know i do ?!

when im cool with my self … you seem’s different 

when i’m around … you get closer (or it was just my feeling…)

when i say something … you say other … then you say the same thing i want

when i saw you … you smile at me

"We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don’t say."

"Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express."

Took fr. : http://niqjuie.blogs.friendster.com/ 

And that what i was doing for you. I guess you could never see that.  

dhie_mario : u already know who i am…all of me… i think i already found mine, but still afraid to confess and take it as part of me…the truth about the feelin i’ve been searchin’ for this long. i just still don’t understand about myself…and how could i become this way. i’m afraid of being my self. please don’t leave me alone struggling with this. i need some one…i need u as a friend. u already know the truth..about who am i.

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