… siMpLe tHouGht of -mEd’z- …

Feels like my grey saturday..
I was about in the middle of glad to have dine together with pandu, chika and shinta before knewing the fact that one of my bestfriend cheated on me. She was liying to me for reason that i haven’t any clue of it..I trusted her for what she said. And i got the second hit not long after knowing my bestfriend take advantage on me, my nephew, Icha, passed away this afternoon..She died in hospital after had nerve-attack (i haven’t got the clear information till now..Still waiting..). She will be buried tommorow noon. I remember her as a nice girl. She just 17 this year. We’ve never met for 2 years. But i still remember her as a nice person to have talk with..She always start the conversation between us,eventhough she was a shy girl. She respect me as she respect her own brother. I never thought she’s gone this young. She’s really a nice girl (i can’t hold my tears..Damn!!). May you rest in peace..
I really feel sad. It both hitting me. I wish I had a shoulder to hold on for a moment..I wish.

Yah…another day yet came away.

this afternoon i spent my time with checkin’ out my friendster…till i came to a picture of us couple years ago (before you left … hahaha). suddenly i reminded to a moment, not too long but it leave a mark quite eternal…and why the music played here somehow suit to the moment!! (Lara Fabian - I Will Love Again).

I don’t know where are you by now…and still try to deny that i really want to know it…

the second night went thru easly…spent my night with chat and laid down at hotel room…met my Rici that night, but we didn’t talk much coz  i was busy triying to figure out the way to listen internet radio and using the web cam stuff…damn!! that’s how i spent my second night at Jogja…shame on me!!

at the third day i woke earlier at 6.00 am and decided to took a couple minutes to swam. actually, the pool was awesome in the morning..the water was warm enough, and the sky was bright. i took 3 laps in a row and got really exhausted after…hehe. and took a REALLY good bathing after, in warm water fill with bubble and aromathic candle at the corner of my bathtub…nice…before i realize i already spent more than an hour in bathroom and late to came to the seminar’s room…lucky still got the chance to enjoying my delicious breakfast (ommlette with 4 pieces of smoked beef and saussage plus 4 pieces temptating pastry)…yummy! it paid my morning!!

the seminar end at noon, and we all came back to Jakarta at 3 pm after taking my late lunch. mmm…why i seen a lot of TV guys here…??? did i in a wrong place…hahaha…i slept along the way to jakarta…really tired. we were stop at the small warung (food seller with a tend) which sold us a meat-meal. we also came here last year. really good taste soup they have (beef soup with coconut milk…my fave!!). i came at Jakarta at 4 in the morning (did i ever mention this before???mmm…sound’s familiar???).

wah…untung hari ini everything goes well…good breakfast for a good day became real…hahaha…free access all day in the middle of meeting won’t ruin your day and died in bored. mmpphhh, just another 30 minutes before dinner time and i wondering what to do…not in mood to take a bath. just lay down in my bed and start blogging with Club 8 as my backsound…i think i better looking to al te picture i was taken for this recent 2 days at Jogja..

Damn…today i feel very upsad and dissappointed to my day!! i’m at Yogyakarta for some job here. but everything seems goin’ upside-down. i thought i’m gonna having some stress release here from my routine, but i’m not abseloutly right! it more depressed out here. don’t even try to make any mistakes or everyone will yell out on you! DAMN!!

i came here at 4 in the morning (suddenly reminded to Gwen Steffany’s song!) without having any bed to slept! the Guest house are all booked! so i awake till morning came out, after some torturing being stayed for 12 hours car tripping from Jakarta to Yogyakarta!! so we decided to stay at Jayakarta Hotel (better that Plaza Hotel last year i guess..) and came at 10 am. i had some trip while having my lunch here at some a-la-carte restaurant in the middle of town (i forgot the name), and trully…they had awful taste food!! cheap but shame! i loose my appetitte. then me and my office-mate came around to Malioboro’s street (where you can find any art things here!), but shame on me coz my pal parked the car at the end corner of the street while the things that i look for are in the other side of the street that quite far away from the park yard. i spent almost 30 minutes walking (while choosing things around the path) to reach the place i headed (and almost take more than an hour to came back). the result was anger also mad faces from people who was waiting quite long for me to came back at the meeting point!! it wasn’t my fault at all!! i didn’t want to find Batik handy craft stuffs and such!!! and i really feeling guilty after…and it ruin my mood. eventhough so, but they still keep looks fine with me, and still talk like nothing happenenned. i really lost my mood after!!

Now i’m really tired to whole this day…i really need a good sleep at a really good bed…hope everything’s fine tomorrow…

ow, btw…i killed my bored by swimming 100m acrossing the pool. cool, it refreshing after tired so much.

mmm…rezeki gw hari ini : "elu dan makanan"… hehehe…sumpah, banyak yg kasi gw makanan ni hari…hahaha…Thx God.

and thx for companiying me thru this boring day … 

wow…i must finish my work today!! no matter what time is it!!! DAMN!!! what i’ve done this whole day was doing editting to a report book start from the inside up to its cover (i design it). and it wasn’t end at all…i still got to print it out for 40 exemplars!!! pphhiiuuhhh!!!! what a day…

mmpphhh…i miss you so much, did you know that… 

this morning suddenly i reminded to one of my dream when i was as a student…i want to be an editor! some kind in magazine or such. what’s the connection on it?? well, actually i’m kind of feeling pity to my self…i do become an editor in this my recent job, but not such like what i’d dream before..and not in a magazine (obviously!!!)…just a small editor for annual ordinary office report (what an unCOOL thing to have!!! hahaha!!!)…in the simple way, i do the clean up after they rush in arrange the report. i made it clearly looks "better" and orderly…mmpphh…still, it’s an editor works!! at least i still get what i was wanted (even in a different way…) .

that’s the connection to what i’ve done in this recent days. still busy in preparing report book for regional science and technology dissemination’s seminar in Semarang…eventhough i wouldn’t came up there mmpphhh…