… siMpLe tHouGht of -mEd’z- …

last nigh i saw one of SmallVille series on TV…yea, perhaps it’s my first time to watch that movie completely an hour! what’s the point on it is…Lana said to Clark in one last scene "If you don’t want to open-up with some one you love…you’ll gonna be alone…". That momen she asked Clark about he’s sacrifice for being around everytime she’s in trouble, but Clark still can’t (wouldn’t) be open for what he felts to her…

i reminded to one of my fella’s ever complain to me, she had trouble with someone she loved. The man still won’t tell his feeling to her, and she keeps wondering why…she told me that "how come it be, while both of us knowing that we’re crushing each other!!!" … than i told her … "not even crushing, i have trouble while we’re both knowing that we’re loving each other!!! But no one ever dare to showing!!!" … i don’t want to wait another year … and now the circumstance are change dramatically, and i got lost on it…i don’t know what’s troublin’ us, all i know we keep separatly and getting far each other. i don’t know what exacly happen. and still…there’s no communication between us until today…it doesn’t mean that i don’t want to start it first…but communication must goes in two. sometime i wondering, why should i start it first..?!

mmmpphh…that’s keep sorrowing my days…God, i don’t really know what to do…it still, in hesitate.

I Really hate this day!!!

and it waste my time to share a problem with you this afternoon…SO WASTING!!!

Gile…inget2 liburan bulan desember kemaren…cukup menguras habis harta gw yah…hahaha…

Jakarta - Lampung - Bandung - Jogja - Semarang - Jakarta !!! Awesome…but now i got bankrupt!! But i can put my new driving record!! 10 hours driving Non Stop!! Cool!!! see those journey pics at http://saintmario2001.multiply.com/photos/album/5/My_Decembers_Trip … yapz..yapz..

Where next ?

Bulan Januari…ya puasa dulu deh…Februari…mmm, punya duit gak yah…hahaha!!!

i spent my whole afternoon just to find Damien Rice song called "9 Crimes"…Gee…it’s really hard to find out one!! He sung the song with Lisa Hannigan…the song was simple, but the melody could dragging your mood a bit mellow. but still, it’s a cool song to hear to companiying you while having a "fat book" or day dreaming…

i shere it on my multiply site…wondering if you’re curious or just stuck to love damien style…you should check this one out… http://saintmario2001.multiply.com/music/item/27/Damien_Rice

" It’s the wrong kind of place
  To be thinking of you
  It’s the wrong time
  For somebody new
  It’s a small crime
  And I’ve got no excuse…"   –>  "Gw bangget sii!!! hahaha…

wow…long time no see…

well, i had great time thru December. i went to Bandar Lampung for job task. cool!! driving all the way…it tooks about six hours to get there from Jakarta, 2 hours Jakarta - Merak harbor, 2 hours crossing the Java Ocean, 2 hours Bakaheini harbor to Bandar Lampung (the center of Lampung region). we went 4 people (and i’m glad Lutfi assist me… ). Before, we stop by at Banten area to did some monitoring and evaluation of my company activity cooperated with one of National University there (Indraprasta University). Gosh…stopping by at center of campus live was quite fun!! (and i just realize that my assignment further more will always be connected with university activity that cooperated with the company). really nice people we’ve met there, they even gave us some gift to take home…(and somehow i reminded to one journey to Carita’s Beach couple years ago with friends and we passed that university before reaching the spot…mmm…strange!).

then we continued the journey to Bandar Lampung…it took about half an hour to reach the harbor from Banten. And it was a really boring moment while crossing the sea!! all you can see is only water!! and couple of small island…it cost about IDR 170.000,- to take a ship crossing the sea to Bakaheini harbor for 1 car with 4 - 8 passangers. upside the ship, you can upgrade your class to VIP by adding IDR 6.000 per person which you can get air conditionered room with satellite TV. better than got burned by the heat of sun. another 2 hours to go to reach Bandar Lampung, and that moment we was having a quite hard rain. the haze came down and blurring the vision. i could only saw not more than 20 meters straight upon the car, it was quite heavy fog with quite heavy rain in the middle of sumatra’s mountain. we reach the city at 8 pm. the Hotel wasn’t bad (and lucky they had hot water while i was freezing after having wet by rain)…and Lampung wasn’t a cool city to have fun with!! i even got some trouble to find dine!! it was all because i got a wrong turn…i didn’t take the city way, but i went to the border side…so all we could see only a quite rode with almost non-living thing around!! hahaha….

the next day we went to Universitas Lampung (quite large university in open natural area)…and did the same thing as what we did in Banten. Bandar Lampung is a quite hot-humid place, coz it located not far from the sea and site up on the hill, so it quite freezin in the night (espc. when it rain!) and quite hot by noon. Lucky we finished the task quite fast…so by noon we already able to came back to Jakarta. and another 6 hours to passed by! But lucky, we had a different ship at our way back. it was bigger one. me and lutfi took the upside of the ship (the restricted area - highes level of the ship) and do lot of photos moment. the view was amazing from the top (the wind blow quite hard..and the sea could seen from 270 degrees)…so amazing up there! The way back to Jakarta took almost 10 hours, coz i drove slower at night..and i got home at 1 in the morning after drove those 3 pals.. Jakarta - Banten - Bandar Lampung - Jakarta (a New Driving Record for me…hahaha!!!).